Self-Publishing: Just Another Prejudice

I’ve always kinda felt like any morbidly curious person who wanted to understand how it felt to face daily prejudice and discrimination should just self-publish a book and watch as they were wilted down into an incompetent, worthless, inferior by the rest of the publishing world.

Watch as the condescending headpats come in. “Oh sure, you’re a real author. Sure.”

Watch as every book blogger, contest, and community suddenly wants nothing to do with you.

Watch as every person you tell your book about gets a fixed smile as they pretend to encourage you.

Watch as the world openly points and laughs at you, belittles you, and writes entire dissertations about how you are inferior and disgusting and a blight on the publishing world.

It’s not the full experience of living with oppression, of course. It doesn’t extend into the workplace, where you’re lucky to get hired at all, where you’re often the first person let go. It doesn’t extend to your family or your community or your ability to walk down the fucking street, shop in a store without being deemed “suspicious.” It doesn’t extend to comedians dressing up like you and mocking and shaming your body. It doesn’t extend to casual slurs hurled at you with the expectation that you will quietly, docilely take them. It doesn’t extend into the courtroom, where your rapist will be patted on the head because now his life is ruined, not yours, even though everyone is writing disgusting articles detailing your rape and blaming you for getting separated from your friends.

For me, a marginalized person, self-publishing is just the cream on the already-sour cake. It’s one more thing holding me back from achieving my goals. You could argue that self-publishing is a choice and that being born gay, for instance, is not. But . . . sometimes I don’t feel as if the traditional publishing world left me any choice. For me, self-publishing was the only way to be heard.

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Outlook Sucks, The Sky Is Blue, and Other Obvious Shit

So I finally got back into my Outlook after being locked out since FEBRUARY all because I kept emailing copies of my manuscript to myself and they thought it was SPAM.

I finally got back in my email, and my inbox was mostly full of — guess what? — SPAM from book promotion scams trying to weasel dollars out of me (yeah, Outlook, keep going in your fight against spam!!!), and literary agents who politely pretended to give a crap about my feelings as they told me they didn’t give a fuck about my characters.

In other news, I forgot how to spell “weasel” and spellcheck had to do that for me.

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Hope You Liked Qorth (and if you hated it, at least it was free)

This is the last day Qorth is free, then it goes back to having that 2.99 barrier that no one seems to want to get past. I hope people who read it enjoyed it. I hope people who did or didn’t enjoy it still feel a blazing desire to let the world know. I want people to talk about Qorth. A book that is talk-worthy has fucking achieved something. If no one talks about Qorth, then it achieved nothing, because it didn’t even grab you enough to make you say it sucked. I just realized I don’t care.

I’ve been doing some reading, and the hatred  for self-published books runs deeper than I ever realized. So I see why people wouldn’t want to risk even three dollars buying Qorth. People are afraid of bad formatting, bad editing, poorly structured stories and just all-around bad storytelling.

I get it. I’m a reader too. I know what it’s like to get stuck with a book on your shelf that you can’t get rid of. Once you buy a book, it’s realllly hard to get rid of it again. Selling it online sucks because shipping costs so much nowadays. I think I believed in miracles the day I found a Bookman’s. I mean, a book store that let’s you buy and trade books? Holy shit.

And because most writers are either awful at the craft or awful people or — lord help us — both combined, I’m often hesitant to read someone I don’t know. This is why giveaways and free promotions are such useful tools: it gives an author a chance to gain an audience’s trust free of charge.

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Interview: I Heart Reading

Here is an interview I did with the blog I Heart Reading, and I decided to share it on my blog because I don’t really believe it’s going to make it on their blog.  I got kinda ranty and I stated some things that a lot of people wouldn’t agree with. But I like some of the answers I gave in regards to A Time of Darkness, so I want to share them here.

Also, these are my opinions on a book (the Witcher) which I am allowed to haveand because I don’t feel like arguing about my opinions (this is not a forum, sorry) I am turning comments off on this entry.

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Wicked Witch Boy and The Harvest

So my internet vacation has been productive so far. I managed to finish revising yet another book (an old novel I let sit in a dark corner for ten years) and it’ll be live maybe tomorrow on Amazon.

It’s called Wicked Witch Boy and it’s a young adult novel about a gay witch boy and his also gay sister. They live in a spooky castle on a hill and they live there alone after their parents’ mysterious death. I meant to mention this in the “dear reader” section but, yes. It was probably heavily influenced by Jackson’s We Have Always Lived in the Castle.  I can’t really remember though since — as I said — it was written over ten years ago.

I don’t write much horror, but I used to read as much horror as I did epic fantasy, so I do have one or two horror stories to publish. Wicked Witch Boy is a horror story because if it was a movie, I think it would be appalling — I mean, Tobias chops off some fingers when he’s first introduced and every other chapter is blood and gore.

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