This post pertains to The Suns of Anarchy, which is book 3 of The Prince of Qorlec. And it pertains to a specific scene that happens early on in that book.
I felt like I should explain what happened between Quinn and Ckylar when Quinn “blossomed,” and what my intention was with it, and why it happened.
First, the entire scene where Quinn’s tentacles “drop” was supposed to be a subtle mockery of the idea that men are pigs who can’t control themselves, and so women should be held accountable for their own rape if they fail to cover up or — god help us — exist and be a woman at the same time.
Ckylar is a rape survivor and so he sees these big, Amazonian entirian women as ravenous beasts with no self-control who will rape him because they can’t help themselves. It’s crazy and it’s not true but it’s his view point after living in a world where he — a handsome, feminine man weaker than masculine entirian women — is constantly grabbed, groped, raped, and can’t walk five feet without someone making lewd comments about his genitalia.
Ckylar has endured an intensely, intensely sexist society for the duration of his life and still views women through his filter of terror and helplessness when he meets Quinn.
But Quinn had full control of what happened. She did that to Ckylar in the bath because she wanted to and wanted him. What baffled and confused her latter was why she wanted it so intensely. Which had to do with Ckylar being ordered to bathe Quinn and all this stuff in preparation for their marriage. She developed sexual feelings for him through her dreams, which was the general’s intention all along, so that they would eventually be comfortable making little heirs later.
This was never explored because most of the early chapters (the first three) are from Ckylar’s skewed perspective, and by the time I’m telling the story from Quinn’s perspective, what she did to Ckylar in the bath is something she’s not even thinking about it anymore. She becomes more focused on her studies and eventually having to train at Canas and wondering where her mother is.
To be honest, I wish I had elaborated Quinn’s perspective here. Not only to make it clear what the the joke was that was being utilized but to avoid having to explain this shit later to people who think I’m trying to say men are monsters who can’t control themselves.
The general is aware that Quinn and all entirian women are not monsters who can’t control their sexual urges, but because Ckylar is afraid — and because she loves him and wants to sooth him — General Miora allows Ckylar to give Quinn a drug that he thinks will control her “urges.” But there are no out-of-control urges to control. Quinn is not in danger of raping Ckylar. Lol. Like . . . at all. Ckylar is simply afraid because he’s been a victim all his life. The drug he gives to Quinn is a placebo that does nothing except maybe upset her stomach.
Sigh. I wish I had elaborated on this more, but at the time I was writing and revising it, it did not occur to me how badly it could be misinterpreted as something else entirely. I guess I could go back and add some things to Quinn’s POV chapters to clear this up, but I feel like that’s only something I will do if people make a big issue out of it and completely distort what is actually there.
I also worry that people will assume Ckylar is compliant in being used as a sex object by Quinn so she can fantasize about Thalcu. But Ckylar is using Quinn as much as she is using him. Had it made sense to do so, I would have written a POV chapter from Ckylar’s perspective explaining that he wanted more than anything in the world to be a father and was willing to let him Quinn use him to think about Thalcu just so he have more children. Only it wouldn’t have made sense to insert an aimless POV chapter for Ckylar post-marriage when Quinn was already telling us about their married life. I guess I could have done it just to make Ckylar’s point of view more clear, but it wasn’t necessary for this particular book. Not when there are three other books to do that with.
Basically, Ckylar loved being a father. Even if it meant making Quinn unhappy. Which was selfish on his part — just as Quinn using him to think about Thalcu was selfish on her part. This is an unhealthy arrangement between two people who didn’t even want the marriage to begin with but still have some kind of love and respect and support for each other at the end of the day.
Unlike the stuff about the bath, this is elaborated through Ckylar’s POV chapters in Light-year Lion. In book 4, it’s revealed that Ckylar feels guilty about trying to use Quinn to get children and maybe he’ll even realize that all entirian women aren’t ravenous beasts who can’t control themselves. Maybe.
I’m still organizing ideas and outlines. I’ve only written maybe two paragraphs of the fourth book and those might be scrapped.
Basically, the point of this post is, Quinn had full control of herself in that bath scene. She did what she did because she wanted to, and if Ckylar asked her not to again — which, you will note, he did not — she would have respected his wishes. I don’t recall him telling her to stop when they were in the bath. He let it happen — he even joined in by fingering her — because he wanted it to happen too and then felt guilty and embarrassed the next day.